It's so hard to find you
I'm standing right behind you
The streets are much colder
This mean I'm getting older

Why would you?
How could I?
These questions lead to goodbye
But now I got my freedom
Don't I?

I parked my car outside your house
Hope that someday you'll come home
Seems the woman that I love
Is someone that I hardly know
And after all this time
I finally found a way to be alone
I'm terrified to think that I may be losing my mind

Shy girl, so humble
With eyes that make me stumble
Somehow not speaking lets me know everything
I go out, You eat in
Hot from the situation
You're naked in daylight
Wrap yourself up and goodnight

I'm burning, I'm hungry
Angry cuz she don't love me
You got me completely
In my own game you beat me

I parked my car outside your house
Hope that someday you'll come home
Seems the woman that I love
Is someone that I hardly know
And after all this timeI finally found a way to be alone
I'm terrified I think that I may be losing my mind

I will be back again
No this is not the end
I've fallen hard this time but I'm not giving in
I want the world to know that I won't let you forget
The tears that you shed
I'll make it impossible to let go

Today is Christmas, so I have gotten to spend all day with my family which has been really nice. My uncle from Bostom came in and suprised everybody....no one knew he was coming in.

I guess this is a blog, so I can say what I want...right? A couple days ago, my sibling and I went to the mall and got my mom all the things that she wanted on her christmas list. Dosen't seem like a big deal....she didn't even really ask for much. So, we were able to get her pretty much everything she asked for. This morning, when we were handing out and opening gifts just amongst our immediate family (mom,dad, sister, bro and I), I realized that if it wasn't for the gifts that we went and got the other day, my mom would not have had anything to open. Nothing. Let me reitterate what this all means. That means my dad, her husband, got her nothing. She got him TONS of stuff, including a new digital camera, just like he wanted. If you haven't gotten the point...he's a shitty husband.
It made me realize that her (my mom) kids are all she has. Everything. If it wasn't for us, she would not have even had a gift to open. We are her everything. And whenever I feel antsy about wanting to up and leave and backpack around the world, I remember that I am her world....